It has taken longer than I expected -- he's the youngest boy there, many of the other kids are "siblings" so they know other people or are familiar with the school, and let's face it - he has a "listening" problem. Our program has the philosophy that you don't leave the kids crying but wait until they say it is OK for you to leave. So what do you think he's going to say? Of course he wouldn't let me go. I heard of one poor Mom that was there for three months. Lets just say that after spending four full days with him at preschool, I was more than a little anxious.
Then today Mia and I took him to school. And of course we were running late. The weekly yoga class is at 9am, so I kind of rushed him in after we got there. And then I felt a little guilty. We hadn't said goodbye. So we waited for half and hour, and I tried to keep Mia from getting into too many things. I didn't want him to freak out if he came out of class and we hadn't said goodbye.
But when he came out, he looked at us and said "You're still here?"
All through high school, when I was a real terror my Mom said (about a thousand times) "I can't wait until you go to college." And then when she dropped me off, she cried the whole way home.
I felt the same way today. I was sad that he doesn't need me anymore. I was so stressed about
him not gaining his independence. And now that he has it, I see that it is just the start of a lifetime of leaving me.
